I am SO over not having the sunshine! Being a person who struggles with depression (self diagnosed) I am easily susceptible to weather, other people, and stress effecting my mood. The last month we have been fogged in or shaded by loads of clouds here in the sunny state of Cali. I HATE IT! Couple that with being sick, stress of the delayed Christmas celebration, and everyday stress of life and being mommy and it is a BAD combo. The last few days I have been in the worst funk. I am not able to get anything done around the house, I am short and impatient with my kids, and I haven't been to the gym in a week. (That's because of my own sickness and my Biggest Boy having some random, intermittent fever and the Littlest Man having a snotty nose.)
Since I am unable to do anything "routine" I am all out of whack. If I could get away with doing absolutely nothing, I would. Thankfully I am able to meet the kids needs. They get me going and, for the most part, keep me going throughout the day. I can't say I am going to win any "Mommy of the Year" awards but, we get by. Unfortunately, my diet has also suffered which makes me feel worse. I have gained weight and I feel bloated and clouded mentally. I know that not eating healthy is directly related to my emotions and to my energy level.
So, here I am again, starting over. I told myself that I would make Monday my fresh start. Hopefully, by then, everyone will be healthy and we can settle back into a routine. Diet, gym, school, housekeeping, cooking, resting and feeling good. It is such a bummer that my New Year's resolutions basically went down the toilet so quickly but, I guess it should be more about being adaptable and getting back on the wagon. As long as I am *trying* to be the person (wife, mom and Ericka) that I want to be then I should give myself some credit. :)
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